My thoughts in writing.

Dear future love of my life. I hope this finds you well and wherever you are, life is starting to take shape for you. Whether you in a relationship or not currently it is absolutely okay, you will end up being mine eventually :-). My reason for writing this is simple, I want you to know me. I won't start by telling you all the good things and the amount of love I'll share with you, I'll get to that later, right now you'll get to see the bad side, the side that is struggling, the side that can be a hand full, even for me. So lets starts there. First of all, I'm Stephen. I just started with life and I'm beginning to accept who I really am and hopefully that will let me grow to become the man I need to become to make you the happiest girl and to have a man who gives you a 100% of himself. For the longest time I have been suicidal but it didn't really manifest itself until a couple of months ago. Since then I've been going on a roller coaster when it came...

Yeah, that does explain me right now, less the cigarette though. Why do I look like that you asked? Well a couple of minutes ago just had the most awkward conversation in my freaking life.....and she be hot as hell. Never felt so stupid and embarrassed( okay I have...so many times but lets just say that to show the intensity of things ) in my life!!!!                There she was, sitting all alone with nothing to distract her apart from her phone, which should have served as a warning but not for stupid Stephen. In my mind I am playing every possible scenario that could happen in that moment. A battle among my 3 personalities taking center-stage on why I should take up the courage and walk right to her and say "Hi". For a while there, I decided not to approach her, continue with our 'pick-a-boo' antics and keep on ignoring each other almost every other time. And yes we ignore each other, well I'd like to think t...